tricky question...

I hate church...not religion or God...but church...

I have not always hated church...I LOVED it in RI, but things are so different here - and people seem so superficial and fake...I get NOTHING from attending and actually feel worse after than I did before the service...I know a lot of it has to do with all the pregnant women and babies around us, but I think that people here take it all for granted and suck at the whole 'being Christlike' thing...

So the tricky question is: Do you put a smile on your face, suck it up and go because it's what you're "supposed to do" or do you not go at all and become inactive...and can you still have a stalwart testimony of Christ and not attend church??

(Sorry I guess that is three questions)

Dream Interpretations

I have the weirdest dreams...and last night's was no exception...

I was camping, at least I think I was...there were trailers all around and a big cabin...and in the cabin there were stoves all along the walls and I was cooking. In the dream a friend had triplets and she gave me one...a little girl.

Funny thing about my dreams - I never actually have a baby...people will give us one, or we will find one...do you think that is me processing the fact that I might never have a baby of my own, or do you think it is 'telling the future' for me?

I hate dreams where we get a baby and then I wake up and realize it is not real :(

Valentine's Flowers

I know I said I would post pictures of the awesome flowers Nathan got me...I just got them sent...sorry they are a bit fuzzy - they are from my camera phone.

!!!%#@*$&@*#$!!!

So people like THIS can have children...but we can't? Where is the fairness in that?!? I really fail to see how this can all be part of a larger plan...

Gotta get out of here

We live in a pretty quiet neighborhood...and for the most part everyone just keeps to themselves. BUT there are 4 or 5 neighbor kids who don't get the concept of OTHER PEOPLE'S PROPERTY...when we first moved in they were always running through the yard...which would be one thing if we lived close to all other neighbors, but our yard is almost ENTIRELY fenced in...save for a small piece on either side of the driveway...you can't get to anyone else's yard from our yard...

Today the kids were playing on the front fence (which we have asked them repeatedly NOT to do and they broke off 2 of the 'pickets'....grrrr....Nathan handled it pretty well, I, on the other hand FREAKED OUT....it is not cheap fencing, it is that way overpriced vinyl stuff (the previous owners put it in, not us)

We have asked them to stay out of the yard and off the fence and away from the dog - because the last thing we need is for Besta to bite someone...but they just don't....so what should we do?!?

Snow

Isn't it amazing that after a good snowfall all the impurities of the earth are covered in a shining coat of clean white? And everything feels fresh and pure and happy? Don't you wish there was something like that for mankind?

Little Bit 'O Culture

Last night Nathan and I were lucky enough to attend a Jane Monheit concert. The University (not the music department, mind you...grrrrr) somehow convinced her to some to our little school in our backward state and put on a show for CHEAP -$5!!- for us poor college kids. She is great, and apparently others think so too...she was nominated for a Grammy. If you have never heard of her, check out www.janemonheitmusic.com.

It was nice to go to a concert and have someone to sit next to...I usually am by myself supporting my hubby! :)

In other news, Nathan is sending an audition CD to Pershing's Own, the US Army Band in DC for their French Horn opening. It would be a great gig - permanent duty, automatic promotion to E-6, plus we would get to move BACK TO CIVILIZATION!! (ok mom, put down the heavy object, no need to take your aggression out on the computer).

Wish him luck (you too mom...)

Happy Thursday!

In last night's hastilly typed rant of unsupressed anger I forgot to wish everyone a Happy V-Day! I got some beautiful flowers from the hubby...HUGE purple lillies and NOT red roses :) He knows me so well. I will take a pic and post it later (if I remember).

Also...as just an aside. I LOVE THURSDAYS! Mostly because it is the day before Friday...and that my favorite show comes on Thu night. I am a hopelessly addicted Grey's Anatomy fan. :) I am very excited for tonight, because last week they left us hanging...anyway.

I hope you all have a Happy Thursday!