I just have to brag...

I have some of the CUTEST nieces and nephews... this video is of the ones in Tennessee. The first number is Michael and Jonathan (Nathan's brother)...then Erin plays the piano, and then Lindsay sings.

I can't believe how good they all are!

I love all the other neices and nephews too - don't think that I favor these ones...I just had this video to show off :)

Lest we forget.

Overall, 2,388 Americans died in the Dec. 7, 1941, attacks, including some 900 still entombed in the sunken Arizona.

This Site has a great history of that day and some amazing photographs.

Too funny not to share

When I was playing this Frankie perked right up...it was so funny watching him try to figure out where the kitty was.

Diagnosis is...

I went to urgent care this morning :( I have had pain in my chest for the last couple weeks (ever since my nasty cold/flu bug the first of November) and this morning it was so bad I had trouble getting up and I slept horrible...

By the way - if you ever want some entertainment...go in to a medical clinic and say you are having chest pain...that gets everyone jumping pretty quick. Once they came to the conclusion (that I had already) that it WASN'T a heart attack, they looked at other causes. I even got to have an EKG...which is not nearly as exciting as it is portrayed on TV...stupid Grey's Anatomy... :(

The doctor decided that I have costochondritis...which besides sounding like a problem you would get shopping at Costco is an inflammation of the cartilage that connects my ribs to my breastbone... which would explain why sleeping us hard and waitressing hurts, etc.

The bad news is that they don't know what causes it...it could be a cold/flu, stress, virus... and there is no way to 'cure' it so I just have to wait for it to get better on it's own...I can take Motrin for it, which I plan on adding to the Ambien I'll take tonight so I can get a good night's rest :)

I know you're trying to help, but...

We decided to put our Christmas tree up today - afterall, last year we didn't get it up until 2 weeks before Christmas. So we pulled out the tree, fixed a few lights that were out and started putting it together...then Frankie decided he wanted to help. We have had three cats (before Frank) still be in the 'kitten' phase around Christmas and we have NEVER had any behave like this...



Here's still shot of 'Santa's Little Helper'

Winston, happily watching Frank getting scolded for climbing the tree.

Smile

Winston hates to have his whiskers touched, and so if I sinply hold them like this he tries to get them out of my fingers by scrunching up his face...and the result is a very cute 'Smile'

Positive

I am generally a positive, smiley person. People that I work with, or wait on comment on it...I say this only to explain so that what comes next and the frustration I'm feeling.

We have been dealing with infertility for 3.5 years.. and it is just as hard now as it was 2 years ago...it doesn't get any easier. My body just can't seem to keep a baby and we are in NO position to adopt. I try to not let it get me down, but sometimes things just blind-side me...today one of those things happened.

Some dear friends of ours just sent out a mass e-mail announcing they are expecting. They are a great couple and were planning on having kids so I should be happy, right? Then how come when I read the e-mail I felt as if I had been punched in the gut?!?? I don't know how to stop feeling this way, just when I think I am over it something happens to prove that I am SO NOT over it.

I should be happy - I made $95 at work last night, and I just finished a really cute skirt which I made WITHOUT a pattern! :) But everytime I hear about pregnancies in people close to us I just shut down. I block everyone out. I realize that I do this to 'protect' myself, and my feelings - but how do I just come to terms with the fact that I may never have children...?? How as a woman (and being a member of my religion which is SO very child/family centric) do I just SHUT OFF that part of me? I just can't and I thnk it is ruining my life.

Winds of change

As you hopefully noticed, I changed the look of the blog...and added some sound :) If you don't want the sound or want to change the song, you can just click 'Pause' or click on the song you want to hear. Kinda cool huh??

I have just felt so stagnant lately, on my blog and in my life, so I needed a bit of a change.

Work is still going good...it sucks to have to work two jobs though. I rarely have time to do something for myself. I am hoping I can get my 'second wind' this week and be able to better use my nights at home. I bought some fabric at Joanns and plan on making me some skirts (thanks Janus!)...if they turn out ok, I'll post some pictures. :)


So, what do you think of the new look/sound??