Saturday, October 28, 2006


ok, so I am having a halloween party and I'm not sure what to be...Nathan and I could match or we could be completly separate - but I have to be something VERY GOOD...after all I m the Hostess with the mostess - so my question to you is what should I (or we) be??

oh, and it needs to be faily simple to put together in 2-3 days...


So it snowed Wednesday night....yep, it is October and it snowed...and the freakier part is that some lawns around town STILL have traces of snow on them...

While it was snowing I was thinking "Whoo Hoo, snow day" and then I remembered where I live and the fact that only like 4 feet in one night would be enought to likely deter school or work... :( That was one nice thing about RI - when it snowed only a few inches we got snow days...

Thursday, October 26, 2006

waste of time...

remember how about a month ago I was complaining about an essay I had to write for my Sociology class?? Well this new essay for her class is just as could be answered in ONE paragraph yet she wants us to blather on for 1-2 pages...idiot

Monday, October 23, 2006

FREE popcorn

The website below is giving away FREE gourmet popcorn until the end of the month. You just have to pay $2.95 for shipping...

Friday, October 20, 2006

tears from heaven

it's raining...and whenever it rains it reminds me of Newport. I miss it terribly and sometimes I forget I'm here and I am dreaming about Newport and my friends there and eating at my favorite restaurant and my favorite place to park the car and listen to the waves. I miss walking in the sand, and the sounds of the harbor. I miss feeling like I was someone who mattered. Not that everything was perfect there - but I miss it.

I am struggling here. I am in a job(s) I hate, working for $6 an hour. I know I shouldn't complain - at least I have a job. And at least I have a sweet, understanding husband, and am close to family...but that still doesn't take away the pain I feel whenever it rains. I have this image in my mind of my windsheild washers going and driving past Johnny's and seeing a stop sign blur past in the distorted, water covered glass. It is an odd image to have, but for some reason I always think of it when it rains.

I miss Othello. I know he was just a cat, and he has been gone for almost 5 months now, but he was like my child and I was holding him when he died. I can still remember what his body felt like, limp and growing cold. He's buried in Rhode Island, next to his brother, and even though I know HE is not in the ground, I still wish I could go there and touch the soil and be close to the last place I saw him. I feel like I never got to greive for him, he died so suddenly, and right before our move.

I feel so overwhelmed, and I'm losing my grip. I feel as though I'm in a storm drain and the water level is rising higher and higher and I can't get out, and the water won't stop's getting deeper and deeper, because it's raining.

Time for a change

So I needed a change from the BRIGHT I opted for green...and pink. I actually felt kinda smart because I took the HTML code from the green and spliced bits of the HTML for the pink in so I have a 100% unique design...

Anyhoo, I made a SUPER good soup last night and I am going to share:

Spicy Chicken Soup (well, maybe more like stew..)

1 can chicken broth
1 can southwest style pepperjack soup (Campbells)
1 can kidney beans
2 cans water
1.5 C chopped green pepper
1 C corn (I used frozen)
1 C sliced carrots (I used frozen)
2 C brown rice
3 chopped Jalepenos
1 pkg sliced chicken breasts (Tyson - they are already sliced and packaged...EASY)
Dehydrated onion (could use fresh - I didn't have one) - to taste
Cayenne pepper - to taste
Garlic Powder - to taste

Place everything in a crock-pot, cook for 3 hours on high or 6 on low. Serve with tortillia chips.

It is really good, easy (because most things are canned, you just pop 'em open)... nice and thick...

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

that week went fast...

Sorry for not writing sooner - last week was a monster. I had 2 exams, 1 study session, a craft night at my mom's, store meetings, a bridal faire, 2 concerts plus all the normal school time and homework...double plus I was covering shifts at work for a co-worker who's boyfriend had open-heart surgery....yikes

I just finished writing a paper on Algeria's position on UN Security Council Reform...before that I read about how socioeconomic status affects crime and violence...I now need to go to bed as it is 1:41am...

BUT good news...I got 24 out of 25 on my Economics test!!!! I am such a smarty-pants! he hee

Tuesday, October 10, 2006


Well, today would have been my due date. I had to work at the baby store - and it was not as hard as I thought it would sweet hubby and thoughtful mom both sent me flowers and Marci gave me a hug when I was on the brink of besides the 'don't-worry-you'll-get pregnant-someday' pep talk from my boss, today went ok. Tonight we had dinner at Nathan's buddy's house with some of his friends from high school and their was fun and a good distraction.

Well now I need to go study for my International Politics test...woohoo...all-nighter for me!

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Fabulous Fall

These are some pictures I took last week - man I love the fall.

Friday, October 06, 2006

Getting to know, I mean me

1. What time do you get up on your day off? You're supposed to get day's off!?

2. If you could eat lunch with one person, who would it be? Any of my friends from Newport

3. Gold or silver? White Gold

4. What was the last film you saw at the theater? World Trade Center

5. Favorite TV show? Seinfled...hands down

6. What do you have for breakfast? Slice of homemade bread slathered with butter and Nutela

7. What is your middle name? Dawn

8. Beach, city or country? Beach

9. Favorite ice cream? Hmmm, the frozen kind??

10. Favorite color? Green and Pink, and maybe Red....possibly Purple

11. What kind of car do you drive? Dixie the Dodge Neon

12. Favorite sandwich? Spicy Chicken Grilled Pizza Sandwich from Gold's

13. What characteristic do you despise? Arrogance

14. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go? Newport

15. What color is your bathroom? Golden Beige-ish

16. Favorite brand of clothing? GAP

17. Where would you like to retire? Beach...anywhere on the beach

18. Favorite day of the week? Wednesday - no school and work not til 1pm :)

19. What did you do for your last birthday? Flew back to RI (I flew to suprise my family for Christmas which also happens to be my birthday)

20. Where were you born? St. Ben's Hospital

21. What fabric detergent do you use? Tide with Febreeze

22. Coke or Pepsi? Diet Coke

23. Shoe size? 8.5

24. Do you have any pets? Winston the cat and Besta the husbands count??

Wednesday, October 04, 2006


So Yesterday I woke up late - missed my first class - then when I got to the parking lot I got out and then SLAMMED my elbow onto the door's top corner...instantly my arm went numb, it hurt so bad I couldn't even get a @#&% out...only tears came. I couldn't even pick up my cell phone is still a little tender this morning...ouch

Then last night I dreamed we were in Newport - and it was the day we were supposed to leave - I was crying and trying to take pictures of everything...I woke up and I had a big wet circle on my pillow - my eye mask was soaked and I swear I had dried tears around my eyes...can you actually cry in your dreams??

The good thing is that in my Economics class when the professor was handing back the tests - he called 'Dear John' up to get his and said "Good Job"...if you get above a 20 I think he comments...well I was hoping for something and when he called my name he said: "EXCELLENT!"....whoo hoo....PLUS I was wearing my killer stilettos (didn't have to walk across campus cause I missed my first class) AND I didn't trip when I walked down to pick up my test...double whoo hoo...

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Week of thunder clouds

So I have known for some time that this week would be a tough one - our baby was due Oct 9th. I have been thinking about it all day and I just can't seem to get the whole thing out of my head. I have been super emotional the last day or so...feeling blue about not having a baby, feeling like I don't belong here - that I don't fit in, feeling just not myself...My therapist had told me (back in RI) that we needed to do something on the due date - something fun that could offer a distraction. The only problem is that I have to work on Monday - from 12-6 and Nathan has school all day...I feel like I am going to need a large dose of Prozac to get through the week...

On a brighter note I found out I got 22 out of 25 on my Economics test - so I have a solid A now...phew...still debating the whole degree thing - I KNOW Liberal Arts would go so much quicker - but Accounting would allow for more jobs once I'm done - BUT I am not really sure I want to be an Accountant anymore - I have kinda thought Marketing, maybe...but who knows, that too could change...

Well I should go to bed - I have to be up early tomorrow.