I am back at work for the first time today...it's been tough but the distraction helps a little. I still cannot believe what has happened...I am mad, no furious that this happened to us. I am in shock, what did we do to deserve this?? We are good people.
I have always been taught to have faith in and lean on God when times are tough...but I can't do that now when I feel like He has done this to us...we try for 2 years to get pregnant, finally do (in a cycle where according to all science we should NOT have), only to lose the baby... AND to add another slap in the face, my very good friend told me she was pregnant 2 days before the miscarriage...she just started trying in January...she got pregnant her FIRST time...it all seems SO unfair.
People keep telling me that God will not give us more than we can handle...I think this time He did.
Monday, February 27, 2006
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Hello again to all of you, I am still figuring this thing out...it runs slightly different from my old AOL Journal. The picture at right is one of my hubby and I at our friends' wedding last May.
First, thanks to all who have sent their love and support to us with everything we have had to overcome this last week. It has been tougher than anything I could ever imagine and it is doing things to me mentally, emotionally and spiritually that will take a long time to heal.
For those of you who may not know or are new, my hubby and I have been trying for a baby for almost 2 years, we FINALLY got pregnant this January and were extatic! Well all that changed last Friday night when I miscarried. I was and still am devastated...it's all still very fresh and painful and I don't really want to talk to anyone...I suppose that's the beauty of a blog, you are talking to no one and everyone at the same time.
Well, I am going to run, my Mom is here visiting to be a support and help to us and she's only here for one more day.
Lots of Love,