Horrible Nightmare

I have not had a horrible nightmare in a while - I have had bad dreams, but nothing as terrorizing as last night. It woke me up out of a dead sleep, I was drenched in sweat and I could NOT go back to sleep.

I was at my parents house (it wasn't really their house, but in my dream it was) and they lived high up in the foothills. I was having a party and all the bank geeks (this term is not offensive, I am/was a band geek) from college were there and we decided to cook something outside. For some reason I and a couple other girls had to go up into the woods a bit to get something and when we were up there this baby and mom black bear go walking past, so we hurried and went another way only to run into a HUGE Grizzly bear. We climbed up this weird tree (bad idea in real-life by the way) and did this Tarzan move from tree to tree back down the hill to the house.
We got to the back door and tried to lock it but we couldn't figure out how. Now there were lots of bears chasing us, so we tried to lock it the best we could and we left the house and all the other party guests to go get the police (don't ask me why we didn't just call 911). As we were running away the road turned into this street lamp lined street from Newport. One of the bears got right up behind me, reached for me but then I talked to him and said "You want to pass us up, there are lots more people just down the road" and he growled something like 'excellent' and ran past us but there were still more behind us. We got to an intersection and I ran in front of a car and waved my arms, the first one passed me by but the next lady let me and one of the other girls I was with in her backseat where her two little girls were.
We drove away quickly and we could see the mayhem these bears were creating. They were everywhere, attacking people. We got to the police station, which had a wall of TV's broadcasting all the news stations and we could see more attacks. Then one of the stations had a chopper in the air and was filming live shots of my parents house and it was odd because the roof was gone (not destroyed, but almost like it had just been cut away so the contents could be seen), and we could see the entire inside of the house...and there were so many bodies, and blood everywhere...but all the bodies looked like dolls and action figures. I started sobbing hysterically and then I woke up.

Seeing it in writing makes it seem not as scary as it was, but I can tell you I was FREAKED out. Over the summer here a couple of people who were camping were snagged from their tents by bears and were eaten. I almost went out to the garage and threw away all our camping stuff...and I kept formulating a plan if bears came into our house how I would stay safe...and how to keep my fur babies safe also. It all seemed so real and I still just can't get some of the images out of my head.

I have NO IDEA where this dream came from - but I have been under a tremendous amount of stress the past couple weeks. I have been trying to figure out the meaning of the dream ever since I woke from it. Any ideas?

Wiped out

Yep, you saw the posting time correct...11:48pm...I walked in the door from work about 20 minutes ago, started a load of laundry, took a shower and ate a can of Mandarin Oranges (which is pretty much all I have eaten today except candy at work)

Having two jobs is wicked hard, but works out good because Nathan quit the grocey store on Saturday ... The thing that sucks is that this job was supposed to be for $$ for my Mustang and to pay off debt, but now it will be so our house doesn't get taken away. STRESSFULL...

Anyway, I just wanted to check in, let you know I have made it half-way through my first 'Double Full Time Jobs' week.

Tag, I'm it

I have been tagged multiple times...so here it goes:

Five things you may not know about me:

ONE - I like to play in the hot melted wax of a candle. I am not sure when this started, but I like to stick my fingers in the melted wax and make 'finger casts' then peel them off and have little Madam Tussaud's replicas of my own fingers...

TWO - I have enough shoes that I could wear a different pair everyday and not wear the same pair in month. Crazy I know, and the crazier part is I would buy a new pair everyday if I could afford it :)

THREE - I steal cups from football games. Well, I guess it's not stealing because they are just left there - and I always make Nathan go grab them... You know the cups I'm talking about, the big 32oz cups they serve the concession sodas in at football and basketball games. They are excellent cups for ice water in the summer - they work well for 'water scoops' when we bathe the cats and dog - we keep one in the dog food bin to scoop food...they are the perfect cups and if the stadium clean-up crews are just going to throw them away they might as well be taken home and put to good use!

FOUR - I talk to myself - a lot. There is a constantly running dialog between myself and ... myself. And it is not in my mind either, it is out loud. I get weird looks from people all the time because it isn't normal for someone to be walking down the isles of the grocery store having a conversation with themselves...

FIVE - I am addicted to blogs - I read them all the time. Family - friends - celebrity gossip ones...you name it, I read it. I recently stumbled upon a blog of a classmate from high school - and I have been 'secretly' reading it for weeks. And she has links to other people I haven't seen since then and I read their blogs too...I wasn't really friends with any of them...they were the 'popular' kids and I was a band geek - so I guess its a way to spy on the lives I was never allowed to be a part of.

I am going to tag: Kara, Ryann, Kim, Kristin and Mikelle (if you don't have a blog, leave yours in my comments)

In case you didn't know...

The Red Sox just won the World Series!!!!!!


Go Sox!

A job, a job....I got a job!

SUPER EXCITING NEWS BELOW:


So I have known that I really needed to pick up a second job for a while...and I have looked and applied at Walmart and Home Depot and Lowes and Smiths, etc...but then a friend of mine (I love you Cas!), her dad is building this new building and it is going to be a restaurant...so I get a number from my friend's little sister and I called today (I know Cas, I was going to do it earlier...but oh well) on my lunch break...Susan (owner...along with hubby) said they were pretty full, but she didn't know for sure so please stop in and see her. So I went by after I got off work, and she talked to me for only TWO minutes and then said they had an opening for someone Mon and Tue evenings...do I want it?? So I stayed and did the training which happened to be that night and I think I am going to LOVE it there. The restaurant is upscale, the owners have ran restaurants before and they really seem to care about their people... so I have more training on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday...Friends and Family night on Thursday, VIP dinner on Saturday and then BAM right into the fire, we go live on Monday the 29th!

I am just SOOOO excited right now I can hardly wait! I served before and loved it so I am hoping this will be fun too - I stand to make significantly more money than my last serving job so that will be good too :)

Well I need to go take my drugs, get a quick bite to eat and get to bed!


The only bad thing about all of this is that I missed Grey's tonight! :(

Cuddle Bug

Frankie is just SO stinkin cute...I came home and wanted to check a few e-mails and read a couple blogs and he jumps up and cuddles in my lap...he has always been such a snuggler and I hope he doesn't stop anytime soon.


Proof::

Isn't he just the cutest thing?? - Aside from Winston of course!

progress, my friends, progress

I finally got an appointment to see a Dr...I went to the same Dr who did my Ovariancystectomy in 2001...and he was jsut as good and caring as I remembered him.

He decided to (almost) double my Metformin dosage in the hopes of 'regulating' everything, helping me lose some weight and get pregnant.

I am excited because he seemed to actually know about PCOS which is noce - but the thought of upping Metformin doesn't sit too well with my tummy - it is NASTY for about 2 weeks while your body adjusts :( But a positive side-effect is weight loss, maybe only a couple pounds, but I'll take what I can get.

Breast Cancer Awareness Month

As you all may know, October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month. I have super close friend who fought and won (!!!) Breast Cancer.

THIS SITE donates FREE mammograms, all you have to do is click.

Please, go here today and click...and if you remember, go back tomorrow and click too.