Friday, October 09, 2009

Three


As I said last year, today is a little rough for me (us) and has been, and I expect it to be for as long as I (we) live. Today we should be celebrating the third birthday of our first child. We never knew officially what we were having, but in my gut I felt it was a girl. It is hard for me to think that I should have a three year old little girl running around. I should be concerned with dollies and mini tea sets and pig tails.
With infertility, it seems that certain dates loom on the horizon and provide landmarks of your journey through the horrible Land of the Barren. Every time one of these dates approaches I hope it will be the last of its kind that we greet with empty arms. Mother's Day, Father's Day, Christmas and my due dates...all difficult times of year for us.
My hope for us is that by this date next year we have a child to hold, to help ease the heartache of years of empty arms.

8 comments:

Lori said...

i'm sorry holly. big cyber hugs.

(ps. i got a new bb, so text me and we can make our messenger work again..)

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you and Nathan today.

LYT,
Mom

Chels said...

I wish you and Nathan some extra special comfort today and hope that you feel your little one's love as well as ours.

Shaun and Emily said...

That is my hope for you as well! I send you my love!

Britt, Ben and Mack said...

I had no idea! I am very sorry and my thoughts and prayers are with you guys!

me and him said...

oh how i hope your hope comes true! we think of you guys often and miss you dearly. may God bless you during these hard times.

Happy Herrons said...

Yes, big hugs. You can do it. Take care of yourself.

Abby said...

I'm so saddened by this and I truly feel for you. Here's hoping your hearts feel a little better today.