Monday, August 24, 2009

Until-ing

I was reading a good friend's blog tonight and she has also recently had large changes in her life including a cross-country move. She had some great ideas/comments and it got me thinking. I think as humans we feel this innate need to look ahead. After church today (yes, I went to church...we've been six weeks in a row. Don't faint, and don't check the skies for flying pigs) I was talking with another woman about infertility. She asked how long we had been trying for a baby and as I heard myself say five years, it hit me. I have spend FIVE. YEARS. waiting for something. That time was spent always thinking into the future. Waiting until I ovulated, waiting until I saw those two pink lines, waiting until my next Dr's appointment. I catch myself saying "Until..." all the time.

Until we get pregnant.
Until I find a job.
Until we move.
Until we have a homestudy done.
Until our house sells.
Until we are out of debt.
Until I lose weight.
Until I have curtains in my living room.

You know what? I'm tired of 'Until-ing' myself into disappointment. If I am always waiting for something I am going to miss everything. From here on out I am going to focus more on enjoying the now. I know it will be tough, but I know it will make a difference.

7 comments:

Lori said...

big hugs girl.

This is our one and only chance at mortal life—here and now. The longer we live, the greater is our realization that it is brief. Opportunities come, and then they are gone. I believe that among the greatest lessons we are to learn in this short sojourn upon the earth are lessons that help us distinguish between what is important and what is not. I plead with you not to let those most important things pass you by as you plan for that illusive and nonexistent future when you will have time to do all that you want to do. Instead, find joy in the journey—now. -Thomas S. Monson

Lori said...

p.s. three cheers on six straight weeks, proud of you!

The Grush's said...

I love it. If only we all could think that way, I think that we would be a lot happier with ourselves. I do a lot of "until-ing" Thank you so much for sharing this.

Rob and Kristen said...

Seriusly, I am going through the same thing, People alsways ask if we will move back to Utah, which we do not know at all, and are not sure what we want anyways. It's really tough to embrace your new home and all, but the past year has made a huge difference in the way that I view living in Arizona.... Arizona is now home.

Amanda said...

It is hard to stop "until-ing", but it's totally worth it. I love this post. You can do it! I know that it really has helped me.

Sheila said...

Holly, well said. You nailed it, I think we all do this at some point. I do the until I lose weight ALL the time and it gets me down that I keep until-ing it until I have to buy a bigger size pants...yuck.

Thanks for sharing your insight. Love you!

Happy Herrons said...

Awesome plan and I am glad you are
'looking forward' (and that you have been to church). You are being guided toward something GREAT!