This evening I sat down and filled out some more of our adoption paperwork...this is the second batch...the little bit that we have to do for the state of Illinois - well, not LITTLE, but smaller than the HUGE (read: think of how much paperwork would kill you and then back it off a little bit) amount we have to do for our agency. I do really well for a while and then I get to questions that shouldn't be tricky...but are. Take for instance the question that asks our total household income. Sounds easy right? Well TODAY ours is a whole lot less than it was LAST WEEK. (Cause my temp job is done...on the market again, hopefully something comes up soon) I hope it goes back up, but what number should I use for now? I don't want to risk putting too little and having them say "Nope, not enough" but I don't want to lie. Then there is the question that asks if both parents are working outside the home what our plans for childcare? Well, right now I'm home, but that might change soon...and honestly we were going to cross the bridge of childcare when we got to it. We've talked about it, but who knows when and where we'll get a baby and plans and situations change. I would love to be able to stay home with our kids, but depending on where we're stationed, that might not be a feasible reality.
We've also had to document the hours we've spent reading adoption related articles, watching adoption related videos, attending adoption classes, etc. You know what?? I've spent A TON of time learning about adoption...and I only know a flake off a chip off a corner of the knowledge block. Adoption is one complicated beast. A beautiful, wonderful, miracle of a beast, but a beast none the less.
I know each of these little steps helps us to get a little closer, and I do see the light at the end of the tunnel, but seriously...HOW LONG IS THIS FREAKING TUNNEL??!?